Hi there, I know you hate “going backwards” on your journey, you hate the anxiety that appears out of no where, you hate the fact that despite the effort to not let yourself to spiral down you still sometimes do. That disliking is so understandable and normal. I have never enjoyed a setback either. You aren’t alone.
Beautifully said Alina. In my early recovery, I found myself celebrating and attaching the label of "good" or "success" to the periods of sleeping well, and "bad" or "failure" to period of bad sleep. This self assessment feels very automatic, as sleeping well (especially after experiencing poor sleep) naturally makes us feel good! It's hard to avoid.
But now i see how that attaching so much meaning was creating a problem. I'm actively trying to adopt a neutral stance as I did before insomnia. A good or bad night of sleep wasn't really an event worth celebrating or denigrating. Sometimes it was good, sometimes it was a little less good. I didn't think about it more than that.
Beautifully said Alina. In my early recovery, I found myself celebrating and attaching the label of "good" or "success" to the periods of sleeping well, and "bad" or "failure" to period of bad sleep. This self assessment feels very automatic, as sleeping well (especially after experiencing poor sleep) naturally makes us feel good! It's hard to avoid.
But now i see how that attaching so much meaning was creating a problem. I'm actively trying to adopt a neutral stance as I did before insomnia. A good or bad night of sleep wasn't really an event worth celebrating or denigrating. Sometimes it was good, sometimes it was a little less good. I didn't think about it more than that.